Summer Guilt

Last month also known as the last month of summer, all I did was ask myself: How did I spent my summer. Well, there is this running joke in Iran about "how did you spent your summer?". The joke is this is the very cliche and typical essay writing topic every teacher thinks of so we fool around our buddies asking this question mocking the teachers. (Well that was awfully hard to explain to an audience that knows zero Persian!) Anyways, I asked myself what was I doing and I got stuck. Seriously what did I do throughout the summer? What did I do? NO IDEA!
After I sat down and thought it through, I realized I had wasted my time a lot, but i didn't change anything, I spent days and days regretting the past. The past: something I will never get back but I kept mourning for the past. There wasn't more to my summer than watching movies and TV series, a little reading books, studying German and visiting a therapist for the first time. Forget the whole travel and relaxing during summer! I worked and studied. I wasted time. All in all, nothing sounded like summer.
The fourth day of autumn  has passed and here I am stuck with summer guilt. Summer guilt is one of the many types of holding on to a past which no longer exists! Bothering ourselves with some thing in order to escape what we really really need to deal with today.The painful issue here is ignoring the now because of the stupid summer guilt!

So my first step was to let go of my summer guilt. If you asked me how I had spent my summer, I would probably say, meh, just fine!